Waiting in great anticipation for the March 20th planetary trifecta, I could have no way prepared myself for the physical, emotional as well as spiritual participation that I would be called to inflict upon myself.

The past two weeks have been so physically debilitating that I was barely able to function, in many cases, almost passing out from the surging energy continuously rushing up through my crown chakra while my ears were buzzing and chiming . I was certain my head and ears were going to explode….the only saving grace was that it was devoid of actual pain.  Thank God I was able to mostly remain home as driving was probably not the safest or wisest thing to do.

It really hasn’t subsided but I’m more familiar with the plateau so I just go with the flow.

This day (Saturday)…with no itinerary pressing upon me, I found myself desiring the intoxicating magic of music….not just any, but the excruciating beauty of those specific songs that reflected the most primal beats of my heart. (Why???) The soundtrack of very carefully and cherry picked songs that highlighted my arduous journey through this incarnation. (Oh joy! Fasten your seat belts!!)

Another delightful effect that these several weeks had in store was the emotional vulnerability that would be brought to the surface.  These episodes of spontaneous tears could be brought forth at the drop of a hat, most surprisingly when watching or witnessing someone else’s joy. (My creaky old heart must be awakening)

It was unusual that I turned to my iPod today, whereas it is just usually a relaxing accompaniment to my mellow time that I cherish and luxuriate in. From the first strains of the familar and touching music, I immediately recollected the message from so many scholars, saints and light beings I have been gravitating to with increasing magnetized energy.  I know, and have known for years, that as the crystalline light is coming to the surface and all the negativity and energy of those things and beings no longer serving us will be purged up to the surface to be flushed away.

It is with that reminder that I quickly realized that if I chose to continue listening that I was about to unleash the Beast.  The Beast has been Very carefully and purposefully laid to rest; not a Death rest; but a safe and insulated place I could someday visit and revive if that karmic opportunity came to be.

But today, with the precision of a surgeon’s scalpel, each song Ripped open every excruciatingly detailed stitch I painfully applied over years and years. I decided that if I truly wanted to experience the fifth dimension in all it’s glory and liberation, that today is My day to purge. I don’t believe I’ve ever really experienced the music like today.  I heard, and more importantly, felt every nuance of passion from which each song gave birth.  …”take another piece of my heart “…feel it pulsating through my veins, and knowing they are all derived from a place of magic as well as immense pain….It is that magic that will be returned to me as I believe it lives in all of us and Is our true nature. I even re experienced my heartbreaks; complete with the actual crushing physical pain that I got to relive again.  What is the purpose? I been on a extended hiatus and enjoy my solitude.  Why rock the boat?  Why now.

So today I’m taking a leap of faith that the rewards of my reawakening will be more than worth the pain.  I relinquish control and trust in the new world so I am removing my cloak of protection and exposing the celestial light of the solar eclipse, spring solstice and the crazy super New moon upon my soul and hoping for all heaven to fall in on me.

Wishing much love and light to my fellow travelers.